Expose: The Journal of Expository Writing Archive
The Creative Spark
“I started to think more about writing as a creative act and less of a transactional exchange. At Purchase, I practiced looking beyond what’s obvious, and discovering something new—not only in writing, but in thinking.”―College Writing Professor and Purchase College alumnus Alexandra Dos Santos
With this issue, we are thrilled to launch a retrospective on the Durst Distinguished Lecture Series, which brings literary luminaries to Purchase College to share wisdom that students carry into their own creative processes. These visits build community at Purchase College as we gather to “Think Wide Open,” drawing inspiration from writers who’ve taken creative risks while expressing their ideas. Many College Writing students have shared “Reflections on the Durst” in this issue, revisiting recent guest lectures by Manuel Muñoz and Lynda Barry.
With gratitude to Chris Kramer ’27 for creating original, colorful, and surprising illustrations for this issue, and for reading each selected essay with care and attention. With special thanks to College Writing faculty members Professor Deborah Cooper and Professor Tessa Rossi for similarly reading and selecting essays with care. Thanks to Professor Emily Sausen for collaborating to host a celebratory launch for this issue on May 2, 2024 at 3:30 p.m. in The Red Room and to Professor Aviva Taubenfeld, Director of the School of Humanities, for supporting this publication project inexhaustibly.
Congratulations to this issue’s featured writers, Robin Adams, Riana Aquino, Nysine Ordonez Blanco, Adrienne Butler, Raneychka Cancel, Caroline Courtney, Sienna Cruz, Teresa Della Monica, Luca Dimnet, Professor Alexandra Dos Santos, Ash Flippen, Mariluz Garcia, Zane Grey, Timothy Higgins, Victoria Hines, Charles Ireland, Jaden Janowick-Cockrell, Ava Landreth, Chris Kramer, Sofia Nagle, Matthew Nielsen, Jordan Plange, Audrey Redmond, Anelise Rodriguez, Aiden Romano, Alina Stepanov, Kris Sorano, Alina Stepanov, Yanis Valderrama, Kaelin Viera, Alana Warnick, and Kate Wilson, as well as finalists Raina Wiley and Antonio Ortiz. Your writing, as Professor Dos Santos describes in her faculty interview for this issue, sparks a “flame of inspiration,” reflecting the essay form as a place for artistry, fearlessness, and excitement.
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
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Reflections on the Durst Distinguished Lecture Series
“…especially coming from a background of little to no hardship; it’s inspired me to write beyond my own experiences, and to write as far outside of myself as I possibly can and really place myself into the characters and setting that I’m writing about.…” Read more
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“Places I’ve Belonged”
“Despite knowing by my second year in Pittsburgh that it was time for me to go, I am so grateful for that Pittsburgh home of mine, the one I entered as a teenager and left as an adult…” Read more
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“The Act of Healing from Trauma Seen in Guadalupe Maravilla’s Retablos”
“I believe that the retablos I am sending love to my eight year old self (2021) and On 12.12.13 I had a surgery (2021) encapsulate Guadalupe Maravilla’s thoughts about healing from trauma through art and spirituality.…”Read more
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“Gateways to Transformation: On Books, Writing, and the Power of Language”
“What Didion did in her works was describe an event she saw someone else experience, then tell her own story about what she believed they felt or did. In this process, Didion makes the emotions of this stranger perfectly understandable and universal…” Read more
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Advanced Critical Writing: “Intersectionality in Margaret Atwood’s Works Illuminates Patriarchal Subjugation of the Environment and Women”
”Through the use of intersectionality, Atwood draws a parallel to how women and the environment are simultaneously affected by the instruments of patriarchy such as capitalism, religious extremism, and a static gender binary…” Read more
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“The Umbrella, the Siren, and the Hand: Trauma and Response in Zambrano’s Loteria”
“In Loteria by Mario Alberto Zambrano, the author compartmentalizes the various aspects of trauma by designating a seemingly random Loteria card to each chapter. The entire novel is told through the perspective of a young girl, Luz…” Read more
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“The Disconnect in Embracing Technology: An Analysis of Alexander Weinstein’s Children of the New World”
“In my close reading assignment, students pick a passage from one of the stories we’ve read together and unpack the words and phrases within it in order to discover more about the passage and the text as a whole…” Read more
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Page of Wands
“Being the youngest child and having a large age gap between my siblings definitely made me take on much more responsibilities. On my 13th birthday I was watching tv with my mom in her room. The cable bill was due for months so all we could watch was Cake Boss…” Read more
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“Love: An Analysis of Mario Zambrano’s Lotería”
“Luz uses lotería cards to communicate the traumatic event she experienced, written in second person. The lotería cards each connect to a different part of Luz’s story, where at the end, they all connect to convey her journey…” Read more
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“More Than a Haircut: The Importance of Inclusion in the Barbershop”
“As soon as I knew I was gay at the age of 12, I understood that the barbershop would be a struggle for me…” Read more
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“‘Rainforest’: Noname’s Commentary on the Effects of Colonialism and Capitalism’s on the Black Community”
“Noname calls herself “the emptiest hallelujah,” a vague and intriguing phrase that causes the listener to question exactly what she means…” Read more
Faculty Essay
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“Writing as a Creative Act: An Interview With Purchase College Alumnus and College Writing Faculty Member Alexandra Dos Santos”
“I started to think more about writing as a creative act and less of a transactional exchange. At Purchase, I practiced looking beyond what’s obvious, and discovering something new—not only in writing, but in thinking…” Read more…
Contributors
Growth
““A word after a word after a word is power.”― Margaret Atwood
Writing is a gateway for growth, and this issue of Expose is packed with moments of metamorphosis. Shakira Cherimond reconnects with her identity as a student after working with children, and Melina Wojcik finds self-discovery through identification with Charlotte Perkins Gilman’s short story, “The Yellow Wallpaper.” Nora Nilsen Healy tackles performance anxiety after finding similar identification within Nathan Felder’s The Rehearsal. Sabrina Kenny, Risa Tirado, and Alexander Uzobuife build new relationships with writing, and Hallie Krause and Emma Pat both shed their long hair and find new clarity and self-possession.
This issue also offers powerful critical analyses. Emma Blacksmith, Spencer Corona, and Robyn Graygor argue that technology is superseding our ability to connect, empathize, and communicate with one another, through analyses of short stories by Alexander Weinstein. Medha Chandwani looks at the different ways we mediate grief through analyses of short stories by Carmen Maria Machado, Eugene Lim, and Ted Chiang. Sofia Mancz compares Jamaica Kincaid’s “Girl” to Kristen Roupenian’s “Cat Person.” In argumentative essays, Isaiah Mojica unpacks how homophobia within religious communities has created barriers for inclusion, and Frances Johnson examines pay inequities in the public school system. In an op-ed from Introduction to Digital Publishing, Elizabeth Baldino articulates what’s at stake in letting social media determine contemporary fashion trends.
With gratitude to senior Jillian LaPalme and alumna Emma Reid ’20 for being this issue’s featured illustrators. Jillian’s intaglio works explore time and memory, while Emma’s digital drawings are visual mind maps that evoke feelings and time periods. Thanks to freshman sculptor Bunni3 Gilot for sharing a new work in our Faculty Essay column, and to Hallie Krause for sharing new drawings as well. Thanks so much to Professor Ellen Brooks, Professor Deborah Cooper, Professor Emily Sausen, and Professor Emily Stout for reading for this issue, and to Expose Editorial Fellow Eden Marsh ’26, who brought genuine passion, inspiration, and curiosity to her responses to the work of student writers. This spring our department establishes the annual Chris Konzelman College Writing Award. Professor Konzelman was part of our department for many years, and his approach continues to inspire us.
Also this spring, Professor Brooks, Professor Sausen, and I participated in a faculty committee focused on the growth of writing instruction at Purchase. This work clarified some ideals that I believe guide our Expository Writing program: In addition to offering students a springboard for academic success, we hope they will write and thrive as individuals, independent thinkers coalescing language and structure with their own intuition and artistry.
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
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Breakthroughs: Writing About Writing
In “My Mind in a Moleskin” and “Poetry,” Sabrina Kenny and Alexander Uzobuife explore moments when writing became a more prominent part of their lives, and the changes in self-possession that followed. Read more
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If The Mind Creeps, Let It: Finding Identity in Charlotte Perkins Gilman’s “The Yellow Wallpaper”
“As unpleasant as this moment was, their reaction, or lack thereof, reiterated my connection to “The Yellow Wallpaper” strongly. I could also see the woman in the wallpaper, and I needed to free her…” Read more
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Inside The Fight for Inclusivity in Religions for LGBTQ Individuals
“The issue of discrimination in religion only causes separation, because it makes it uncomfortable for gay people who feel a spiritual connection to be fully immersed in the religious practice they choose. This overall stifles a religion’s ability to grow as a whole…” Read more
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Bronx Dreaming & Dark Nights
“Finding Jonny’s music showed me the impact that writing could have. Writing could make you feel seen and tell stories you’re not used to hearing. These stories can shape who you are and provide you with a sense of direction or clarity…” Read more
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Two Autobiographical Essays Connect Hair, Identity, and Empowerment
Hallie Krause and Emma Pat explore change from the outside in–how a change that feels like a risk leads to new avenues of strength, self-worth, and empowerment. Read more
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Public School Teachers Are Egregiously Underpaid
“If we cannot provide teachers with necessary resources, it only hurts their students’. If we cannot allow them the freedom to feel at ease in the classroom, that intrinsic happy feeling is lost. That feeling that drives the connection of ideas and emotional engagement with all the possibilities of learning…” Read more
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Three Writers Shed Light on the Different Ways People Grieve
“Three short stories, Carmen Maria Machado’s “Help Me Follow My Sister into the Land of the Dead,” Eugene Lim’s “What We Have Learned, What We Will Forget, What We Will Not Be Able to Forget,” and Ted Chiang’s “The Great Silence,” illustrate the denial of bad news, mental confusion, and acceptance as completely different and valid reactions to grief.” Read more
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The Expectation That Women Conform Is Timeless: An Analysis of Works by Jamaica Kincaid and Kristen Roupenian
“Cat Person” by Kristen Roupenian is a short story that exemplifies the struggle young women face regarding trust and the navigation of the early stages of romantic relationships. “Girl” by Jamaica Kincaid is a brief narrative that follows a mother’s advice to her young daughter on how to survive in a patriarchal society. Throughout both, the strict expectations placed on women, like how they must conform to the male gaze or their anticipated perfection, negatively affect women and their ability to be themselves…” Read more
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Examining Technology’s Impact on Relationships: Three Critical Studies of Alexander Weinstein’s Short Fiction
In analyses of three contemporary short stories by writer Alexander Weinstein, writers Emma Blacksmith, Spencer Corona, and Robyn Graygor explore how our trust in technological devices as a surrogate for human relationships is inhibiting our ability to connect with one another…” Read more
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The Diary of a T.A.
“He explained how the district was always looking for T.A.s, feeling the fit may be good. He offered to write recommendations if needed. In stumbling across this job, everything finally clicked…” Read more
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No Rehearsal for College Actors
“I thought I was going to watch a cringe comedy series, but instead, I found a mirror of myself and my insecurities and felt strangely comforted…” Read more
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Introduction to Digital Publishing: How Social Media is Compromising our Ability to “Fashion” Trends that Define Our Era
“The rise of social media did not create the cycle of quickly rotating trends, but it influenced what this cycle has become. Fashion trends and the intention behind them have ceased to embody the realities of their time, largely due to how the digital world impacts our culture.” Read more
Faculty Essay
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An Interview with Senior Auditor Michael Feinstein
“With writing, you’re really looking to specifically reach people, I think. Maybe some of it is like a diary, where you’re following your thoughts to see where they go. But the thing I like about writing is that you are ultimately communicating with people, and they’re communicating with you…” Read more
Contributors
Gratitude
“My gratitude for good writing is unbounded.” —Anne Lamott, Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life
As we begin a new academic year, the word that comes to mind is gratitude. I’m grateful we are learning together, in person, on campus. I am also grateful to the writers, readers, and contributors to this new issue. Alicia Garbutt, Rachel Dashow, and Johanna Sommer share moments of growth, change, and self-discovery in three new autobiographical essays. Dana Freeman, Sophia Kalish, Ruby Holt Larsen, Abigail Luis, and Lorena Ramirez write critically about, respectively, our pervasive dependence on technology, endurance and survival, assimilation, and the isolation that can accompany notoriety, with works by Alexander Weinberg, Dorothea Lange, Jhumpa Lahiri, and Andy Warhol as points of entry. In an opinion piece for Introduction to Digital Publishing, senior Thomas Carty questions what makes a classic album a “classic,” reaching essayistic clarity from a philosophical start. And, Expose Editorial Fellow Barbara Kay distills profound points of unity in the analyses of work by Jhumpa Lahiri. She also edited these works thoughtfully, with attention to the voice of each writer.
Sophomore journalism major Lyric Hounshell created illustrations for each piece of writing in this issue. In her words, her works focus on Black life, experience, freedom, and success, include different faces and shifts in size and scale, and employ symbolism to explore the remnants of Black ancestry through contemporary Black culture. Thank you for your wonderful work, Lyric.
An extra special thanks to Professor Emily Sausen, Professor Deborah Cooper, and Professor Ellen Brooks for reading for this issue.
I am deeply grateful for the years the College Writing department was lifted and inspired by Professor Chris Konzelman. His passing in April of 2022 shocked and saddened us. We grieve him, and miss him. With appreciation for Professor Will Borger for writing a powerful remembrance and tribute, and Director of College Writing Emily Sausen for her leadership, grace, and strength throughout. The department also congratulates Professor Peter Dearing on his new appointment as Director of the Learning Center, and is thrilled to welcome Professor Katherine Dye, Professor Genevieve Mills, Professor Dylan Paul, and Professor Emily Stout. This issue of Expose is dedicated to Professor Konzelman, who once told me, in paraphrase, to go after things without fear—he offered this same confidence and fearlessness to his students, who grew not just as writers but as human beings while studying with him.
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
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Passage Selection: “Mrs. Sen’s” by Jhumpa Lahiri
“In ‘Mrs. Sen’s,’ an immigrant from India becomes the caretaker of a young American boy, Eliot. In their analyses, Ruby Holt Larsen and Abigail Luis explore the reality that multiple things can exist and be true at once…” Read more
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The Impacts of Technology on People in the Near Future
“Finally, technology negatively affects people in the near future by distracting them from experiencing reality. For instance, in “Saying Goodbye to Yang,” after Yang malfunctions and then no longer works anymore, the narrator describes time slowing down and how he notices more of the world around him…” Read more
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Look At It
“Migrant Mother and Women of the High Plains both convey intimacy. In both images, there’s a main character, and a protagonist, centered. Based on what they’re wearing, what they’re doing, and their facial expressions, a story is instantly created…” Read more
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The Art of the Essay: “Killed With Delight”
“When Wordsworth writes a waterfall had, “Haunted [him] like a passion,” I imagined there must have been some opium in the picture to induce such fervor, for what alone in the natural world could stir him with such a lucid intensity?” Read more
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Baby, I Can Drive My Car
“With no one accompanying me, the car started to feel a little bit like a spaceship again. I could not believe I was driving alone. When I turned on the first main road, I felt like operating this vehicle was more second nature and not foreign like a spaceship anymore…” Read more
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How I Found Out
“I didn’t know she was right at the moment, but eventually I became comfortable and confident with who I was; and now that I’m in college I feel the most confident. I’m surrounded by other people like me, people who are proud and sure of themselves…” Read more
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The Truth of Stardom: Andy Warhol’s Marilyn Diptych
“Marilyn Diptych was an art piece and commentary on Monroe’s personal life, stardom, and death. Monroe’s stardom ultimately caused her true self to be forgone, and this is demonstrated both through the use of color as well as space in Warhol’s silkscreen piece…” Read more
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Introduction to Digital Publishing: “What Makes an Album a Classic?”
“The problem is that the word “classic” is hard to define, particularly when it comes to music. Ask five people on the street what the characteristics of a classic album or song are, and you’re likely to get five different answers. …” Read more
In Memoriam: Remembering Professor Chris Konzelman
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“I hope he knew how much he meant to me, to all of the people lucky enough to sit in his classroom and know him personally. I think he did. His life impacted too many people for him not to. I know it changed mine.” Read more
Contributors
Metamorphosis
The personal narratives in this issue express moments of regeneration and growth. In “From the Ashes,” Lily Schwendener forges a new path as a college student after a career as a professional ballerina. In “Painting Change,” artist Alexa Gallo identifies that visual art is her tool to “speak up about injustices in this world.” Two writers are renewed by beloved television serials; Leah Moser’s discovery of the The Simpsons“in their chaotic dysfunctionality, made me feel seen in a way I hadn’t before,” while for Gianna Goldey, Friends“inspired me to not follow the social norm.” Luthier Sonberg makes a break from a parent, James Simiele makes a break from a flawed youth group, and Indi Anna Richardson finds understanding and closure in Lil Peep’s “U Said,” writing, “I’m not the best at leaning into my feelings, so I let the music I listen to lean into them for me.”
Three students from Professor Sausen’s Fall 2021 sections of College Writing analyze how reliance on technology for connection and fulfillment poses challenges to intimacy, authenticity, and engagement with the natural world by examining short stories from Alexander Weinstein’s collection, Children of the New World. Sandhya Colucci draws a connection between exposure to trauma and an instinct for self-erasure by analyzing Jaquira Diaz’s 2019 memoir Ordinary Girls.
In lieu of a faculty essay, this issue revisits a live storytelling event for College Writing students hosted by Professor Dearing and I at the Multicultural Center. Barbara Kay’s personal essay captures the intrinsic and transformational power that accompanies shaping a story, and sharing it with others. Our YouTube page links to many of the stories shared that evening!
Collagist, writer, and freshman journalism major Lyric Hounshell is this issue’s featured artist. In her first College Writing paper of the Fall 2021 semester, Lyric described her bedroom floor covered with “eyes, faces, hands, and clothes, the part from finding the pieces to making the collage almost a blur.” Her work examines beauty, identity, protest, and justice.
With gratitude to this issue’s readers, Teaching Good Prose students Lea Bajgora, Maureen Guy, Amber Hahn, Barbara Kay, Gaby Santos, and Tess Walsh, as well as to readers Professor John Mitchell Morris and Professor Ellen Brooks. This issue is dedicated to Professor John Mitchell Morris in thanks for his support of Expose, his constancy in championing student writing, as well as his mentorship, kindness, and excellence in teaching during his time at Purchase College. And, warm best wishes to our new Interim Director of College Writing, Professor Emily Sausen.
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
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Springfield General Grabbag
“The Simpson family lived in my version of the real world, one that wasn’t fair and didn’t make sense. It wasn’t trying to guide you towards some squeaky clean, oversimplified moral conclusion. In fact, it actively parodied the idea that one could realistically do so.…” Read more
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The One with the Second Monica
“My tendencies of overthinking and getting worked up over little things were counteracted by watching Friends, because it eased my mind and always created a safe space for me. It then became the secret language of my household…” Read more
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Jaquira Diaz: Self-Erasure Through Relationships, Substances, and Self Harm
“ Through her memoir, Diaz illustrates that children of broken homes often cope with trauma through self-erasure, aiming to effectively disappear through relationships, substances, and self harm…” Read more
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Painting Change
“Over the past year and a half, the world has been at a crossroads and the need for people who stand up for others has skyrocketed. We have faced many injustices and the fight to correct them has never been bigger…” Read more
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Knockout
“It’s a surreal experience, gaining the perspective you’ve been waiting for so long. That feeling of worthlessness began to go away once I understood that the people I’d been so desperate to gain validation from were not more important than me…” Read more
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From the Ashes
“Ballet was my superpower and my kryptonite. It had the ability to make me fly, but it turned me into the most insecure and unhappy version of myself. It became time for me to make the greatest sacrifice I ever made..” Read more
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A Father’s Son
“I’ve always been told I have my father’s eyes, but our visions couldn’t be more different. And realizing that might’ve just saved my life…” Read more
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The Faults of Progress
“Technology continues to advance and society alters to incorporate these progressions into daily life. Most advancements have proven to be beneficial, but one may begin to question: When has technology gone too far?” Read more
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Technology and the Dangerous Divide
“Like any great science fiction author, Weinstein uses the technologies we have available to us today and heightens them, asking a lot of major what-if questions…” Read more
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Alexander Weinstein and The Implications of Technology in the Future
“In the short stories “Children of The New World,” and “Openness,” Alexander Weinstein displays the inevitable loss of control, loss of human connection, and exploitation of others that is beginning and will continue to grow as technology overtakes society…” Read more
College Writing Event Spotlight: “Expect the Unexpected”
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Until Next November
“I distinctly remember breaking out into hives after presenting my eighth-grade science project; running down eight flights of stairs to hyperventilate in the bathroom and calm my racing heart, only for my legs to ache on the way back up. William was the captain of his speech and debate team that year; I thought of that when Professor Dearing announced we would be doing a Moth Story Slam…” Read more
Contributors
Movement
“Words bounce. Words, if you let them, will do what they want to do and what they have to do.” ― Anne Carson
This past summer, we felt the movement back toward more familiar routines, only for them to change again. Yet, even as aspects of our collective reality remain static, I believe we are moving within, unearthing new reserves of strength and new thresholds of renewal.
The essays in this issue capture exact moments when something moved within each writer, toward flashes of insight that affirm we are alive and present with our own humanity even when the world remains unpredictable. Some transformations, for Jay Fehntrich, RenĂ© Garrett, and Sun Hwa Tamashiro, occur because an educator forges a connection with a student. Claudia Pascale tests the boundaries between the real and the supernatural to discover that a cascade of “what-ifs” accompanies the pursuit of any burning question. In “Weakness,” Jaime Lazaar recognizes, “If there is no room in this world for the weak of heart, then we must simply make room. Pain is an intrinsic component of life.” For Kristen Benner, Gabriel Ortega, and Gabriela Santos, new self-awareness forms because a character or a work of literature compels each writer to regard their experiences in a different way. Maureen Guy and Sadye Moore take us further into the latter process, modeling close reading and analysis of two short stories by Jhumpa Lahiri; the stories and their analyses also move, between what writer Jo Ann Beard refers to as “the story on the surface and the story under the surface.”
With gratitude to all contributing writers, and to Professor John Mitchell Morris, who wrote the Faculty Essay for this issue—it’s one to revisit time and again, as it reaffirms that writing and reading are interrelated, lifelong processes that necessitate time, focus, structure, support, and space; both draw out our creative and intellectual capabilities, and nurture our inner lives and critical thought process. Many thanks to the readers for this issue, Sonnel Hill Basora, who was also the first recipient of the Mary Ellen Marks Editorial Fellows Prize in the Spring of 2021, as well as Professor Ellen Brooks, Professor Chris Konzelman, and Professor John Mitchell Morris. And, my deepest gratitude to featured artist Anna Brand, who has generously shared a body of work with us that reflects her own movement between the modalities of painting, sculpting, and wood burning. “Everything flows onward.”—Ovid
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
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Transformations: Rising
“Growing up I lived with only my mom, from four to sixteen roughly. I would sometimes visit my dad and his side of the family before 2011. I’ll get into why that stopped later, but growing up I never had a house or my own room…” Read more
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There Are Worse Things Than A Ghost Story
“When I was eleven, I had a good friend who often lied. So naturally, I was dubious when she told me that there was a house on her street that was haunted. However, I decided to give her the benefit of the doubt for three reasons…” Read more
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Finding Security Through Uncertainty
“My mother told me to get to know other kids by finding commonalities, and she assured me that everyone would want to be my friend. But while my mom couldn’t find a reason why anyone wouldn’t like me, doubts started swarming my thoughts. I knew I was weird, my mom didn’t….” Read more
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Olive
“One of my earliest memories is the first day of Kindergarten. I sat alongside 24 other students in a circle and one by one each of them went around saying their names and favorite color. I practiced what I would say in my head over and over again…” Read more
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Analysis: “When Mr. Pirzada Came to Dine”
“Throughout the story, the reader sees different characters make distinct choices to shelter Lilia from reality—through a metaphor of costumes and candy, Lahiri highlights all of the spectacles put on to celebrate Halloween, creating the perfect symbol for the conflicting ideas and chaos that ultimately surround Lilia…” Read more
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Ms. Williams
“The doctor came in, asked me if I had recently had unprotected sex, and I had but I lied—I was weak—and no match for what was to come…” Read more
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Comfort in Discomfort
“Up until the age of fourteen, I had never found a fictional character that I could truly relate to. Spiderman is a possible exception, but I couldn’t realistically see myself swinging from web to web saving my hometown. On June 24, 2015 that all changed…” Read more
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Weakness
“It’s okay to be a weak person. There is nothing wrong with pushing yourself to be better. To become stronger. But in our society, there is such a heavy emphasis on needing to always be strong. While those who are weak get left behind…” Read more
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Reflection
“I would envision embarrassing situations I had previously been in, analyzing them over and over. I would think about my friends and how maybe they only tolerated me. I would think about my parents being disappointed in me, and I would ask myself if I was really making a difference in the world…” Read more
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Analysis: ‘Mrs. Sen’s’ by Jhumpa Lahiri
“At first glance, a glare from an elderly woman may seem innocent, but it is an example of the micro-aggressions and discrimination that minorities, especially immigrants, encounter often….” Read more
Faculty Essay
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Teaching Writing Process in an Age of Distractions, Speed, and Instant Gratification
“To teach process is to teach students that writing—real, thoughtful writing—is not the midnight-race-to-the-finish-line they too often embark upon the night before an assignment is due; to teach process is to teach students that writing—like every other skill we need and value—requires discipline, patience, and care…” Read more
Contributors
Finding Connection While in Isolation
“Pay attention. It’s all about paying attention. Attention is vitality. It connects you with others. It makes you eager. Stay eager.” ― Susan Sontag
The Fall 2020 semester was unlike any we have experienced before. The magical, spontaneous moments of connection that happen in the classroom, unforced and unexpected, were sought in Zoom chats, breakout rooms, games, debates, peer review-partnerships, small discussion groups, and one-to-one conferences. Every connection we discovered in two-dimensional space felt valuable and precious.
In this issue, Professor Ellen Brooks, Gianna Wainwright Milfort, and Lily Oyen bring us back to the early days of quarantine and track how we have bridged then, when we were blindsided by an absence of connection, and now, where we continue to tap into our creativity in new ways. Personal essays by Lotte Fincken, Angel Gonzalez, Julia Little, Clara-Hannah Sobouti, and Leanora Tapper remind us that writing and literature invite us to look within, in order to reconnect with ourselves and others. Jordan Moore and Henry Mosto capture an eerie unsettling tone that seems to fit this time of uncertainty, in essays that show their narrators on the brink of danger, on a psychological precipice, with each narrator recovering with greater self-awareness and strength. Students in the College Writing Lab wrote profiles of teachers from their past who made an indelible impression, and informed the course they are on now. And, a few selections take us “inside the classroom” reflecting the critical thinking and rhetorical practices that occur in all College Writing courses; Jannessa Alexandre, Abigail Frederick, and Rebeka Sawka are each exacting in organizing evidence to form a compelling and profound argument, to express an idea that resonates beyond their initial sources and prompts readers to think in a new way about each source and its implications.
Many thanks to College Writing faculty for their time in nominating student work for this issue. Special thanks to Professor Dearing for writing a powerful faculty essay that distills effective and supportive ways to nurture student motivation. With gratitude to the readers for this issue, Expose Editorial Fellows Sonnel Hill-Basora and Aaron Noriega, and Professor Morris and Professor Sausen. My heartfelt gratitude to sophomore Anna Brand for sharing a collection of paintings, pastels, and collage works that together create a vibrant, colorful issue of Expose. Onward into this new year, together.
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
In Memoriam
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In Memoriam
The School of Humanities and the College and Expository Writing Department were deeply saddened by the passing of Professor Mary Ellen Marks in December of 2020…Read more.
Essays
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Profiles: Remembering the Teachers Who Inspired Us
This series of mini-profiles focuses on high school and middle school educators who made a lasting impression and awakened new possibilities of self-discovery. All were written by students in Professor Wright’s and Professor Dearing’s sections of the College Writing Lab, which meets once a week during the fall semester…Read more
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Forward Cycling: Retracing My Path to Purchase
You find determination within yourself when you’re fighting the heavy wind or getting back on your bike after falling on a slippery road. This is a part of my Dutch culture that I carry with me, wherever I go, steering me in the right direction. In a way, it is also what brought me from the hills of Rijssenseweg to a journey of self-discovery at Purchase College…Read more
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Just Like Jim
The Office was a staple show in our relationship. On a good or bad day for us that show was always on. It started off as something we loved to do, a pastime that took away from the reality of what was going on…Read more
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One With the Stars
Ever since I was little, I have struggled to fit in places. I have never been super outgoing and making friends wasn’t the easiest thing for me. Because of this, I’ve spent a lot of my life feeling lonely…Read more
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Elevators With Strangers
Elevators feel endless with a stranger. You aren’t trying to be rude but you feel like you need to get out. Something on the floor is sticking to my shoes but I ignore it thinking this ride will end in a second…Read more
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Literary Analysis: Tara Westover’s Educated
As Tara’s journey evolves through her education, we grasp that the body represents a mechanism of control based on her loved ones desire for authority. Once Tara starts forming her own beliefs and cultivating an intellectual identity, she gains control over her voice, as well as her physical body…Read more
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After the shift to remote teaching last March, I noticed more late assignments and more students talking about lack of motivation, especially when it came to writing. In our conversations, students reported that what they needed most: connection…Read more
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Two Student Reflections on Quarantine
Before quarantine, each day was a chore. Life was something I felt forced into and dragged through, every day being a struggle against myself. Yet, as I watched the world change, my views did as well…Read more
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My Life Was On Paper
I was a troubled kid. I wrote a lot about loss and depression, and I had recently lost an uncle in a car crash. My poems and stories were about that pain and figuring out how to cope. I wanted to gain control of my thoughts. I’d write and write for twenty minutes nonstop…Read more
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The Intricacies of the Mind
Raskolnikov’s journey taught me, amongst other things, the fragility and intricate nature of the mind, the power the mind holds over the body, and the consequences, both positive and negative, of the things one manifests…Read more
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Finding Independence
I crafted a long text message to my father explaining my reasons for leaving. I knew from that moment on why I always felt that Nora and I had a connection. We were two of the same…Read more
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Passage Selection: Light-Skinned Girls and Kelly Rowlands by Alexa Arthurs
Initially, I thought that this story was going to focus on the issue of colorism, based on the title, and there were still mentions of complexion and racial phenotypes throughout the story (Arthurs 1). The first paragraph introduces how darker-skinned black women are only praised if they meet certain beauty standards…Read more
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Rhetorical Analysis: “Voices Are Power”
Through the use of visual rhetorical strategies; such as symbolism, color and shapes, Favianna Rodriguez’s Voices Are Power, argues that women of color and feminists have important voices to be heard…Read more.
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Faculty News
This is a roundup of faculty highlights and publications from 2020, as well as a summary of opportunities for professional development and enrichment…Read more
Faculty Essay
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Faculty Essay: Notes on Motivating a Student
A student without motivation is like a car with no gas. They have all the necessary pieces to make the journey, but no fuel to get them anywhere. You cannot help a student who doesn’t complete the work, so the question becomes, how do you motivate your students? During my first couple of years teaching, it became clear that addressing motivation should be a critical component of my teaching philosophy…Read more
Contributors
Lives: Glancing Within…
“I really love language. I love it for what it does for us, how it allows us to explain the pain and the glory, the nuances and delicacies of our existence.” ― Maya Angelou
This issue of Expose focuses on the autobiographical essay. Within each work, the narrator revisits a moment of personal transformation to explore a universal theme—the negotiation of power, the quest for a new method of self-expression, the feeling of all-consuming, uncompromising passion—while retracing an intricate pathway to renewal.
Given the upheaval the coronavirus has wrought for our community and the world at large, students in the spring 2020 section of The Art of the Essay focused their narrative nonfiction and personal essay projects on the impact of the global pandemic; excerpts of their work are shared in a longform collage essay. Professor Emily Sausen shares a new craft-of-pedagogy essay examining the connections between contemporary short fiction and a strong expository writing practice.
Many thanks to all College Writing faculty for their time in selecting student work this year, and special thanks to Professor Sausen as well as the readers for this issue, Dashielle Horn, Olga Seham, and Expose Editorial Fellow Jennifer Luna ’22. Congratulations to the finalists for this issue, Amy Bochner and D’Yanni Bozan. With tremendous gratitude to student illustrator Emma Reid ’20, for her creative vision. As we proceed through quarantine, I hope that we all find some space and renewal in writing.
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
Essays
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Collage Essay: Coronavirus Chronicles
The following is a collage of excerpts of personal and reported essays chronicling the impact of the global pandemic on our personal, academic, and professional lives…Read more
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Spotlight
Applause seemed to surround us. I checked if my setup was ready and waited for the conductor’s cue. For the first time, I was under control and it was not a coincidence. This piece of music represents part of my life story. Realizing that everything that happens on stage was about perspective took me a really long time…Read more
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Considering the Risk of a Liberal Arts Education
My high school physics class was led by a cranky teacher. As much time as I spent in that class haphazardly drawing out proofs or frantically glancing at the equations my classmates were balancing, the majority of time was devoted to my teacher’s obsession with the futility of studying the liberal arts…Read more
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Finding Frank
Hand in hand, my best friend Katya and I hastily crossed the RFK Bridge walkway in the sticky August heat. We maneuvered around the half-dressed Caucasians in neon spandex shorts and glittery faces, who sipped on their Poland Spring bottles filled with fruit punch colored liquid. I took a sip of a water bottle as we passed a concert-goer already collapsed on the path. It was eleven in the morning. Katya and I scoffed…Read more
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Though She Be But Little She Is Fierce
I remember the first time I read A Midsummer Night’s Dream by William Shakespeare. It’s a wildly complex plot that takes place in an enchanted forest full of witty characters, caught in a dramatic love triangle; it was just my speed…Read more
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Outsider
My sensei had announced that he would be forming a competition team, and invited a handful of students, myself included, from the dojo to compete across the state of New York. As soon as I heard the news, I was ecstatic; I felt like I could start a new chapter in my life, and become a legitimate athlete…Read more
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Finding Spirituality in C.S. Lewis’s The Chronicles of Narnia
Growing up, I had never been able to deeply connect to Christianity or any other organized religion. When I hit a wall emotionally in my senior year of high school, I purchased a copy of the book that included all seven stories, as a desperate escape back to the familiarity of peace that the series gave me as a child…Read more
Faculty Essay
Finding Inspiration: How Reading Contemporary Short Stories Creates Good and Empathetic Writers
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The self-identification that happens in the humanities cracks students open and leaves them raw in important ways. It is merely one step from “that could have been my son” to “that could be me”— that character reminds me of myself, or my friend, or my cousin…Read more
Contributors
“…the first would not understand them enough, and the last too much; and so they may hover in the middle region.”–Michel de Montaigne
The winter 2020 issue of Expose explores in-between spaces. A sixteen-year-old travels from Queens to India for thirty days to reconnect with family and identity. A Chinese Jewish American looks for, and finds, feelings of acceptance and belonging in the words, actions, habits, and rituals of family, with insight along the way from writing by Adeline Yen Mah. Jazz drummer Jimmy Wormworth is influenced by both Italian-American and African American relatives in Utica, New York, and finds a passion for music, a new interpretation of family, and hard-won feelings of self-acceptance within jazz ensembles in New York City and beyond.
Other kinds of in-betweens are here as well. Jalyn Cox Cooper ’23 recognizes that a community can either support or inhibit one’s individuality, her insights bridging her high school years and her new beginnings as an undergraduate. Alena Klimchenko ’23 analyzes a protagonist whose expectations distance her from the possibility of friendship and intimacy, suspended between two versions of possible selfhood. Jean Ings ’23 proves that a camera can bridge a perception and a reality, by studying Milton Rogovin’s Lower West Side series.
Much gratitude to College Writing faculty member Ellen Brooks for launching our Faculty Spotlight column with an essay on how the writer’s voice, as well as her capacity for empathy, are cultivated by writing about art. Thanks to readers Ellen Brooks, Darcy Gervasio, Dashielle Horn, and John Mitchell Morris, as well as to illustrator Emma Reid ’20. And, congratulations to finalists Ashala Jones and Kristin Vik.
—Amy Beth Wright, Editor
Essays
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Profile: They’re the Picture, I’m the Frame, Inside Jimmy Wormworth’s Jazz Family
Saunders Street looks decidedly pastoral after crossing Queens Boulevard underneath the Long Island Expressway…
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Personal Essay: Bound to Free
When I tell people I hated high school, they usually believe that I’m exaggerating…Read more
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On Photography: The Families of the Lower West Side
In his Lower West Side Series,Milton Rogovin showcases the many faces of Buffalo, New York…Read more
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Critical Essay: How Presumption Prohibits Connection in Alexis Arthurs’ “Light Skinned Girls and Kelly Rowlands”
Kimberly, the narrator from Alexia Arthurs’ short story “Light-Skinned Girls and Kelly Rowlands,” has difficulty adjusting to collegiate life…Read more
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Personal Essay: Latkes and Dumplings
When I stand in front of the grey door on the seventh floor of my grandpa’s apartment complex in late December, I know what is coming next…Read more
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Personal Essay: American Desi
The word “desi” comes from the ancient Sanskrit language, meaning “country”…Read more
Faculty Essay: Notes From the College Writing Classroom
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Voice Lessons
On a chilly afternoon in mid-November, our College Writing class meets at the Neuberger Museum of Art to tour the special exhibition of the work of Engels, a Haitian American artist who currently lives in Brooklyn…Read more
In this issue, three writers focus on works of visual art and writing that have informed their sense of belonging—and a fourth writer finds the same sort of solace and kinship on his skateboard. All four essayists examine how their subjects possess layers of universality that counter feelings of isolation. In two critical essays, Aliena Ali ’22 and Michelle Proteasa ’22 compare contemporary short stories by Kristen Roupenian and Carmen Maria Machado. In each story, a female protagonist mediates her actions to accommodate a man she feels bound to—Ali and Proteasa analyze how certain, and constrictive, facets of heteronormativity are being expressed anew in contemporary literature.
The latter two essays are representative of the rigorous work to closely read and analyze texts, as well as to synthesize multiple sources to craft a compelling argument, that takes place in all College Writing courses.
Essays
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Comparing Machado and Roupenian to Consider the Role of Self-Delusion in Traditional Romantic Relationships
When the narrator in “The Husband Stitch” meets another woman with a ribbon like her own, she is astounded…Read more
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Cruise Control
We’d spend hours repeating the same steps until, finally, I got it. This was my first taste of the skateboarding community—the best community, but with the worst reputation…Read more
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A Seat at the Table
Weems embodies and incarnates the universal: platonic love, familial love, romantic love, love both mutual and unrequited…Read more
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A Place to Call Home
I was born on February 15, 2000 on the small island of Trinidad and Tobago. On December 25, 2004 my family officially moved to the United States, with one suitcase and $100 in hand…Read more
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A Year and a Day
My brother and I were both forced to experience loss at a relatively young age, and, like Noah and Jude, we similarly lost ourselves—and our bond—for some time, before finding it again…Read more
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Submission: Two Female Protagonists Reexamine Familiar Heteronormative Power Dynamics
Two contemporary short stories, “Cat Person” by Kristen Roupenian and “The Husband Stitch” by Carmen Maria Machado, examine how a woman’s authentic identity can be compromised by the men around them…Read more
In this inaugural issue, personal narratives by Kevonna Buchanan, Tessa Freeman, Midori Fujita, and Brendan Welch reflect upon pivotal moments of self-transformation, where each writer’s concept of his, her, or their identity shifts to reflect a new kind of awareness. Two critical essays, by Jonathan Carr and Kori Hall, consider the implications of our reliance on technology to express ourselves in the digital era—these two essays are representative of the rigorous work to closely read and analyze texts, as well as to synthesize multiple sources to craft a compelling argument, that takes place in all College Writing courses.